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Sunday, February 28, 2010 12:36 pm
packed listen, ♥  Our secrets in life. It's the last day of February and I've pretty much been through countless ups and downs. In any case, it's almost over and I'm thankful for all the thoughtful friends who are always there for me. I enjoyed my birthday surprise though I kind of know what is going to happen. :P I enjoyed the times I've spent with my friends, making me feel loved. I love my family who will always stand by me. (: although I really hated the common test period but hey, it's all over. :D It's been a very tight packed week that I've got, studying everyday. One paper after another, that tried to kill me slowly. Yay for now, it's all over. I will work harder for my next exams. :D Monday was the day I awaited for you to come back, but you never did. D: You left me all alone, waiting for you to come back but to no avail. I miss you BestFriend. General Paper was relatively fine, I hope I can pass. I really worked hard for it even though I was having fun with Weilun's puppy. (x I stayed back in school until 630pm to study cause Love and I were stuck. It was raining too heavily. Tuesday was Chinese and Economics. Chinese was screwed up, I practically rushed through the whole paper. D: I didn't complete my Economics paper cause it was farked up. I couldn't do the case study. The essay was relatively tough but I could do the basics. I really studied super hard for it. I know it's not about how hard I studied but how smart I did so, all I was trying to do, is to prove my worth. I stayed back after the paper to study with Love and Qiqi cause Dearie went home to study. Wednesday was History. It's the first time I ever completed the paper before hand. Although it's like only 10 minutes before hand, I felt like a flop. For the 7 years that I took history, I never completed the paper before hand. I never ever completed my paper but I did so this time. D: I hate Southeast Asia History, it sucks so bloody much! ): International History was no better. D: The question was so tough, I wanted to faint and die already. D: Thursday was hard core stupid. I studied pretty hard for Literature and I gave it my best shot. I didn't complete Paper 1, which was the comparison of the poem and it was too difficult to do so anyway. D: Taming was pretty fine, I mean, I gave it my best shot. I'm praying that I would score cause I never ever do well for Paper 5 and it's depressing to not. D: I had so much to go for Paper 1, I pray that I don't fail it too badly. D: Friday was Biology and as always, I know I'll never make it. HAHA! I'm a pathetic loser. D: The paper was -.- that the H1 students were stoning half the time when the year 3s were rushing through their work. Crying out loud please, haha! I met Aiai on Friday, after so long. I miss her so much! Aiai, all I want you to know right now, is that I will always be there for you. The past, present and future is what we have worked so hard for, and I'll never give it up for anything. Thank you for the wonderful times you've given me and the encourage, hope and motivation to carry on whenever I am about to falter. Know that you can always count on me, the way I do. There's always a place for you in my heart because, you mean so much to me! I wish you all the beautiful things life has to offer. I love you. :D I met Mummy after that and we went to get Jacob's birthday present. It was so tiring and we only managed to get 1 thing for him. We reached home at about 10 plus and I slept pretty early because my eye was itching and hurting very hardly. Saturday was tiring because I went to get Jacob's other present and then rush to church. The steak Daddy cooked was AWESOME! :D i loved it so much! (: Voda, cheer up. I love you and you can always count on me to be there! Get well soon! I want to meet you and to see you soon. I miss you so much! xoxo, Today is the most boring day on earth, lol. Okay, not boring but ... Heh, never mind, let's leave it at that. I'm done with International History project and script! :D I feel accomplished. :D hahaha, crap! (x I'm left with Literature essay which was suppose to be done last week, :P and my dumb Chinese book review. Fark chinese homework. Okay, goodbye! What a wonderful world. MARTHA!
Monday, February 22, 2010 7:30 pm
730 listen, ♥For the 730 days I miss you. For the 730 and more, I miss you. For the 730 days of darkness. For the 730 days I wish you were around. For the 73o days I was in search for you. For the 730 days you were not around. For the 730 days of insecurities. For the 730 days of struggle. For the 730 days of sorrow and unhappiness. For the 730 days you left me, for good. crushed, MARTHA!
Sunday, February 21, 2010 9:10 pm
)': listen, ♥  We are sons of the morning., we are daughters of day. You have to tell me what is going on because I cannot read your mind. Do you get it? Feeling depressed at 11:51pm at night SUCKS! D: And it's not my fault that my body cannot take the pressure and decide to break down. Why are you angry with me over such trivial stuff? I feel wretched. ): Tomorrow BestFriend, tomorrow. D: The one who have loved us, had called us to be. MARTHA!
9:08 pm
farkkkkk listen, ♥I DON'T KNOW WHAT'S YOUR PROBLEM! I REALLY REALLY REALLY DO NOT KNOW! D: CAN YOU STOP DOING THIS TO ME? I DON'T OWE YOU A LIVING ALRIGHT! ):
Thursday, February 18, 2010 10:33 pm
heeheehee listen, ♥  It's not over tonight. I hate the fact that I cannot meet Aiai tomorrow though we planned it long ago thanks to bloody Common Test. I hate the fact that I cannot meet Voda or stay over thanks to my crap schedule! D: I don't want to drift away from my loved ones slowly. ): I hate school, I hate school, I hate school! ): So, I decided to head to school tomorrow. D: Stupid, I know. i hate Chinese. D: I hate SEA History. D: I'm not going to learn anything tomorrow but I'm still going to school. I want to have a consultation with Mr Raj. I want to understand Econs better cause I want to do better. Consultation for Literature next week, I'm determined. Even if it is to go alone. D: PATHETIC is my middle name. D: Okay, it's 12am and time to sleep before I get cranky and whiny tomorrow. D: I don't like school. D: BestFriend, 3 more days. )': I MISS YOU! Take me by the hand. MARTHA!
Tuesday, February 16, 2010 9:44 pm
sunshine listen, ♥You are my SUNSHINE, My ONLY sunshine. You make me HAPPY, When suns are GREAT! You'll never know DEAR, How much I LOVE YOU! Please don't take MY sunshine away. xoxo, MARTHA!
Sunday, February 14, 2010 11:21 pm
special listen, ♥  Whatever it takes. HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR! :D To everyone and anyone! (: HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY BALQISLOVE! :D I love you FOREVER! (: HAPPY VALENTINES DAY! :D To all the lovely people in my life. (: Rebecca♥ BestFriend♥ Yaosheng♥ Fareen♥ Yinxiu♥ 5n1o8♥ Sweethearts♥ Balqis♥ Fazila♥ Marleenah♥ and the list goes on ♥ I love each and every of you in so many many many ways! ♥ You have your ways. ♥, MARTHA!
11:14 pm
7 listen, ♥  Nothing to lose. 7 things I love about you. 1. I love the way you notice everything I do. 2. I love the way you try to hold my hand and mendle with my fingers. 3. I love the way you say my hair's messy and start fiddling with it. 4. I love the way you try to put my fringe in place but the wind blows it away the very next minute. 5. I love the fact that you jump at opportunity to send me home. 6. I love the fact that you always want to walk me home. 7. I love the things you do to make me happy. Take me to your heart. MARTHA!
Saturday, February 13, 2010 5:05 pm
bleah listen, ♥  My pain walks down a one way street. I'm done reading Taming of the Shrew but i still don't understand it at all. D: I read the online synopsis, but am still not sure about anything. D: I feel like dying right now. D: So depressing to not understand what is going to be tested in the exams. I believe that I'm screwed to the point that I have no hope in Literature anymore. D: Sad sad kid, on the last day of the Lunar Year of the Ox? Whatever luhs. O: I hate the fact that Chinese New Year clashes with Valentine's Day. D: Okay, I'm very tired and I'm contemplating if I should watch a movie with my Brothers tonight since there's nothing to do. Anyway, we'll see how things go. D: I'm so tired and drained right now. D: The weather is so suckish, I can roll on the floor and die. Gosh, I want to sleep, now. AhGong's house in an hour plus. I want to watch Percy Jackson cause the guy is so hot and the movie looks interesting. I want to watch Valentine's Day but I heard it was only okay. Still, I want to watch and judge it on my own. Okay, I have more work to do. I haven't done International History powerpoint but will start on it soon. (: I promise. (: I have to start working on all my homework too. D: This sucks so badly. So much for the Chinese New Year celebration and holiday. My finger nails are maroon. :P Bye! :P How you open my heart, to a new paradise. xoxo, MARTHA!
12:31 pm
phantasmagoria listen, ♥  At the sound of your name. Some things are beginning to change between you and I. It feels like I'm beginning to need you more and more with each new day. Your smile makes me melt, the text you send gives me hope, our meeting up brings more joy then sorrow into my life and I start to wonder and question myself ... What am I to do, without you? You make everything worth while in a blink of an eye. But I'm hoping and praying that it is not momentarily but lasting. I cannot afford to lose anymore in my life. I've tried to be the best that I could. Not only to you, but the rest of the world. I'm praying that we don't take the chemistry between us for granted cause you always have your ways to make me feel happy and loved. You know you can always count on me to be there for you when you need someone. Just remember that you're never alone cause you'll always have me around. (: You make me feel loved, even at 1am in the morning. Love can make you do things you never thought possible. - Phil Collins You're the sum up of my life. xoxo, MARTHA!
Friday, February 12, 2010 8:36 pm
(: listen, ♥IT'S AMAZING HOW YOU CAN SPEAK RIGHT TO MY HEART.
7:59 pm
sulking listen, ♥  You forgot you are my world. I don't know what's happening to me, I cannot seem to understand the feelings and emotions that I am having. I'm sick and tired of almost everything but I cannot seem to stop trying to hold on to you. I know it's very stupid but I believe that ... Oh well, you won't understand and it's okay. Whatever it is, I'll slowly discover and rethink about all the things that I am thinking about. Okay, too much is going through my head now. I need to find answers. I need to study. I'm going insane. I'm going to bang my head on the wall soon. I'm so pissed at myself for no reason and I wish I could leave right now. Be happy, Think positive. I need to go on with my life, even without you. That settles my desire for you. xoxo, MARTHA!
6:53 pm
yay! listen, ♥  YAY! Everything went according to plan and I'm so HAPPY! :D It was such a tiring process and I need to learn how to be in task instead of doing last minute work! Yesterday literally killed me. Thank goodness today's Friday and a non-studying day thanks to Chinese New Year. (: BalqisLove, the smile on your face made everything worth it. The time, effort and fatigue that I overcame. I'm glad you're happy. (: Thanks to all who made it possible. :D I love you Balqis! :D xoxo, MARTHA!
Thursday, February 11, 2010 12:02 am
gastric listen, ♥GASTRIC AT FARKING 12AM IN THE MORNING. *point middle fingers*
Wednesday, February 10, 2010 9:04 pm
hidden listen, ♥  Let me be the one to, give you everything you want and need. Sometimes, I cannot help but question and doubt myself. Sometimes, I wish I was a better person. Sometimes, I wish I could smile and keep myself alive. Sometimes, I wish I could brave the world and the challenges it brings. Sometimes, I wish you could take all the pain that I'm feeling away. Sometimes ... I know I'm on the verge of breaking down and so ... I'm trying as hard as I can, to press on and do my best. There are times when we don't see the pain in each other, but somehow, we know that things will get better. Sometimes, my heart perceives the worse when things are really not that bad. But, there are times when things get out of hand, to the point that i don't know what I can do anymore. My heart seems numb and dying. Take me away, will you? BestFriend, i miss you. I love you Voda! Whoever told you I was letting go? MARTHA!
Monday, February 08, 2010 10:20 pm
wonder listen, ♥Sometimes, I start to wonder why people would change so drastically without any warning. I try to reflect on the happenings in life but all I see is something bleak and unworthy. Life hasn't been the best or the worst for me, but I really am trying to learn how to appreciate. Take me by the hand, I promise we'll make it through the night. uncertain and reluctant, MARTHA!
9:51 pm
D: listen, ♥What if someone close to you likes the very same person as you? What would you do? D: MARTHA!
9:05 pm
bitch listen, ♥  I'll come running. Today, i feel like a bitch. A total asshole and i don't know why either. Maybe because I've let you down by being mean and stuff. But I'm sorry, cause I'm only human and this is how much i can do. I miss you, somehow. HAPPY 18th VANESSA DARLING! :D I love you! (: HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY FAISAL. Please learn how to reply your texts! With every beat of my heart. MARTHA!
Sunday, February 07, 2010 10:48 pm
jangjang listen, ♥  don't make me change my mind. I'm officially 19, a few days ago and it SUCKS! D: Oh well, i should thank God for giving me this opportunity to live cause not many people have the chance to live pass their 18th birthday. You won't really get what I mean but it's fine, really. I've been thinking long and hard but can never seem to find the answers to certain things. Maybe we as humans live life in doubt. In any case, I will be positive. (: I will not let my friends down, because that would probably be the last thing they want to see me in. I'm tired and overwhelmed by so much. Maybe it's time to sleep after studying International History since Friday in preparation for Common Test. Wait, I'm not even done yet. D: This sucks! ): I still have so much more to study and do. Economics which is driving me insane. Literature which both papers usually suck me dry. Southeast Asia History which seems so dumb yet a must study kind of thing. GP which is killing my drain cells slowly. Chinese which is oh-so-boring. Gosh, i have so much of complains! Okay, i must stop my bad habits! D: I must be POSITIVE! (: Okay, i need to do my History homework but it's not loading. How? I dun want to get scolded first thing in the morning. I need to pack my bag and sleep soon before I get cranky. D: Whenever I try to take a step, something just comes in the way. I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry. I really am trying. Happy 18th to my Dearie Fazila. I love you to the skies. :D Happy Birthday to Balqis Mum! :D hehehe. :P I'm no longer in control of my life. MARTHA!
6:00 pm
wonders listen, ♥Slowly, but certainly I'm falling for you. Please don't let this be another lie. D: MARTHA!
Wednesday, February 03, 2010 12:12 am
:D listen, ♥  cause i can no longer say, I'm proud of us. OMG OMG OMG, I'M FINALLY DONE WITH GP PROJECT. I CAN FINALLY SLEEP AND NOT WAKE UP IN THE MIDDLE OF THE NIGHT, PANICKING! :D YAYYYYYY! :D GOODNIGHT! (: dun tell me you're sorry cause you're not. xoxo, MARTHA!
Tuesday, February 02, 2010 7:27 pm
blah listen, ♥  forever and a day. HELLO! I am so bloody screwed, i need to complete GP project by tonight or i'll die. I have to start working on my International History cause Monday's the due date and we only have only 1 week to do it. D: I'm done with stupid redundant IRP and I have the second draft of PI to do which is due on Friday. Screw this. Not forgetting my tuition homework which is due on Thursday. How wonderful, NOT! I'll have a long day tomorrow and it sucks. D: tired from everything, especially waking up in the wee hours of the morning to do my homework and study. Okay, goodnight and goodbye. I have loads of work to do, NOW! anyone of us. xoxo, MARTHA!
Monday, February 01, 2010 4:55 am
damn listen, ♥PLEASE CONVINCE ME THAT I HAVE A LIFE. I'M AWAKE AT 4AM JUST TO STUDY AND TO COMPLETE MY PROJECT. O: THIS IS HARD CORE KILLER PLEASE! I HAVE YET TO FINISH MEMORIZING ECONS! D: I'M SO BLOODY SCREWED. DONE WITH DEMAND AND SUPPLY AND PED BUT NOT THE OTHER ELASTICITY PARTS! ): ANNOYING OR NOTTT! /: When will it all be worth it? Till the day I die? ): MARTHA! |
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